tmg fan blog

i've tried. i really have. but i haven't found anything i thought would be worth to write about. i don't have much now either. i'm writing this post to declare that "woke up new" by the mountain goats is arguably the best song i have ever heard, but i've mentioned it before so i don't think it really qualifies as "news". anyway, there's this line in the song.

an astronaut could have seen the hunger in my eyes from space.

and i've heard the song before and i've noticed the line and not really thought much of it, but now it's just stuck in my mind. i've listened to the song at least ten times today and that line is the biggest reason. (there are other reasons too, the main one being that the song is AWESOME). just thinking about it gave me goosebumps earlier today, and i don't think that's ever happened before. i know i've posted a link to the video on youtube before, but i'm going to do it again just because i can. the mountain goats - woke up new. maybe the line fits my life better now. it's open for interpretation, it's got a dualistic touch like most of the lines in the song. instead of the "she left me and now everything sucks"-theme that is ever so common, woke up new has lines such as "i felt free and i felt lonely and i felt scared" and i know all of those feelings and i know the ambiguity and confusion and i know that song and i like how it doesn't simplify anything. i like how it sees both sides in a very calm way. i think i'm like that, i try to see both sides way too much. it's a good thing in moderation, but if you do it too much you're never able to draw any conclusions or take a firm stand on anything. this can be frustrating for both you and people around you. but since the song is like that and i'm like that, i like the song a little extra.

in other news, my thesis is just not coming along very well. i can't seem to get working on it. and i don't really understand why. i'm not feeling very good about it and i'm not very proud of myself, but nothing seems to help. i'm not sure what to do about it. i've tried. i really have.